What do I fear?

I fear many things both physical and mental. I've always been terrified of heights or more specifically of falling. I've also been scared of many animals such as a great white shark, Lions or Tigers and  many various snakes. However what i'm most scared of is becoming somethings that';s not who I truly am but I have deceived myself into thinking its what I need to be. I fear disappointing the people I care about the most. I fear becoming something different than who I am and who I want to be.

All my life there's always been one event that I've dreamed of happening. I've always dreamed that one day i'd be standing on a pedestal or stage and i'm in front of a huge crowd with my family in it and my family turns to everyone and tells them how proud they are of me. My fear is that maybe that day will never come that instead of making them proud I will only disappoint them.

I've always been scared of the future and that fear has always led me to ask what if and asking what if has prevented me from living my life. Its prevented me from making relationships with others and truly trusting them. Its prevented me from trying new and exciting things forcing me to do the same routine over and over and end my life with regrets.

Fear despite what it tries to do still helps shape who we are. Its the battle we fight with it that helps make us the person we want to be. Its a struggle we all must go through and by fighting and beating my fear I will become stronger and make my family proud.

What Do You Want?

All I want is happiness for myself and those around me. I want self-confidence and to become successful for myself and my family. What I want is simple but hard to obtain and is something I've searched for my whole life. What I want is something that most people eventually want yet the way I obtain it will be different that others.

I will obtain my happiness in many ways, one of those ways being helping others as much as I can and making them happy. Helping out my family, friends and those in need helps me feel happy because I was able to help make someone else's life better. Also obtaining a job as an archaeologist or a history teacher will get me my happiness. Being an archaeologist would give me a chance to explore the world, discover ancient artifacts and ruins and explore the nature of different cultures. And being a teacher would give me the chance to share my knowledge and love of history with others.

When I was younger I thought my happiness would come by being a professional wrestler or a boxer. Then later on in my life I thought it would come from being a politician or lawyer. At one point in my life I even thought it would come with being a boxer. However I now realize that as long I have a job that involves either helping others, history, movies or video games I know I will have happiness. I know that if I'm doing something that brings me joy I will have my happiness.

 Overall I just want happiness for everyone. I want myself to be happy and those around me to be happy. Its like Charlie Chaplin said in his speech in the great dictator "we want to live by each others happiness not by each others misery". I truly believe that to be true and I will obtain my happiness by doing what I love. And I will help others as much as I can to help them achieve their happiness.                                                                                                                                                

Who am I?

Who are you?

To many people I am known as Tristan Serrano to them that is who I am. To my father I am known as a loyal son to my mother a caring son to my grandmother a loving grandson and to the rest of my family a good family member to them that is who I am. To my friends i'm a loyal and understanding person. To strangers i'm just another puerto rican and dominican doing what he has to in school who also has a nerdy side to him. Yet I myself often ask the question who am I? to myself and while I still have a lot more to figure out i'm sure I have a good foundation.

I guess first I have to say what I like after all what you do and like does show your personality better than words sometimes. Well my three biggest things I love are video games, movies and comic books so yes I am a geek and damn proud of it. I also love history and yes people that love history do exist were just very rare. I also love learning about other religions and cultures along with their traditions and their food. And finally I just like helping others whether it be teaching them something like history or just helping those in need like community service.

I suppose after what I like is how I describe my own personality. I personally view myself as a man who tries to be kind, always tries to make others happy and love with my corny jokes. Also i'm very accepting person, i'm open to other peoples cultures and religion i'm also open to hearing other peoples opinions on different subjects. I would also consider myself a considerate person always putting other people before myself i've also been told i'm wise for my age. However I will be the first to admit i'm not perfect after all I am just human. I can be stubborn, annoying and I can be close minded to certain things (sports). But I think I i'm still i'm a good person overall.

Overall i'm not fully sure of who I truly am but like I said earlier I think I have a good foundation of who I am. I could be wrong or I could be right I guess in the end its up to me to decide who I am and who I will become. But if you were to ask me right now who I am I would tell you that i'm a tall, white Puerto Rican nerd who loves history and values family, friends and equality above all else. In other words i'm Tristan Serrano and that's all I need to say.