My Own Spirituality

All my life I have heard different interpretations of what God is suppose to be like. I've heard that he's a loving and caring god who resembles a father to his children. Yet I've also heard that God is vengeful, cruel and unfair and resembles a flaming spirit who views all as vile and evil. I'll be the first to admit that i'm not a very religious or spiritual man. But I have always been fascinated by the idea of God or other spiritual Deity's such as Zeus. I've always questioned why he did what he choose to do even though they try to explain it in the bible. I especially questioned Gods "Laws" from the bible things such as you can't live with someone unless your married or the most talked about "Law" that two people of the same sex cannot be together. After a long time of thinking about this topic I have finally come to a decision about what type of person God is. I believe that God doesn't care about what you are the only thing he cares about is are you a good person or not? I believe God doesn't care if your black, white, asian, european, hispanic, gay, straight, buddhist, jewish, christian or muslim. I believe  that as long as your a good person then he loves you because you are his child and he will allow you into heaven. As long as you care about, respect, accept and love your fellow man and woman then you are considered a good person and thus you deserve to go to heaven. If you hate, discriminate, hurt, abuse or take away your fellow man and woman's rights then you are considered evil and thus not allowed into heaven. I believe God created us and gave us free will so that we could do what makes us happy and thus makes others around us happy. I believe that God make us different to make us unique not inferior. I believe God wants the unity of all men as badly as the any of us and while not directly he does help to show us the way to happiness and he teaches us its up to us to claim that happiness and share it. I believe he made us unique and different as a way to make us independent and strong and with that strength bring us all closer together.

The Division Effect

The division affects many people in many different ways to many it cause separation and personal problems to others it gives that an ideal or goal to fight for which is to end the division. Its caused family members to argue and fight over whats best for who or whats right or wrong. Its caused others to be treated as outcast or freaks. The growing division has caused many debates, arguments, protest and speeches. It has caused people to think what is right and what is wrong  and who has the power to determine whats right and wrong? It caused people to take sides and turn on each other and made people wonder about the future of others. It has even gone as far as lead to violence that continues to grow worse and worse everyday that it is not fixed. This is why I choose to do this project because I see how this division causes such pain, sadness, separation, and intolerance and I hope to help end it as quickly as possible before it has a more negative affect on this society.

Revealing the Division

People always search for the truth no matter how deep it goes believing that the people deserve to know the truth and that they can handle whatever the truth holds. While some people spend their whole lives hiding the truth claiming its better if the people never knew the truth. To them its a way of protecting the general public. To me i've always believed that the people deserve to know the truth and that no one has the power or can handle the responsibility of determining what people can or can't know. Whether people handle the truth responsibly or not having them learn it through research, revealing and exposing lies creates more problems than it prevents. Learning more about the division that is present in todays society will allow people to try and come up with a solution quicker without letting things get worse. The division I hope to reveal is the separation that is created by those that are intolerant to other peoples choices for their life against those that defend their right to love whoever makes them happy and whoever they choose. Unfortunately it is a problem that many refuse to acknowledge that it even exist or create a solution to. I hope to reveal to people the injustice that has been done to other for simply doing what they love and offer a solution that will ensure everyones equality, freedom and happiness.

Pre - Production Religious Division

Pre Production

Screenwriting :

Questions for followers of the church:

1) What is your stance on Catholics / Christianity church’s  that accept homosexuality?2) What does it state specifically in the bible that goes against homosexuality?

3) Where do you stand when you hear people questioning the Bible or its intentions about homosexuality with in your life time?

4) What do you think about religious followers protesting at homosexuals funerals?

5)  What do you think of the people that use the bible to instill fear about homosexuality?

Questions for civilian:

1) What is your stand on gay marriage?

2) What is your background when it come to your religious beliefs?

3) Do you attend a church that knows your sexual orientation and are they accepting ?

4) Do you know what the bible says about homosexuality? What do you think about that.

5) What do you think about religious followers protesting at homosexuals funerals?

Storyboarding /Previz (Description)

*	We will be traveling to different church locations in New York City.
*	Then we will be meeting various church officials and civilians.To ask them different questions about how they feel about homosexuality and what the bible says about it.
*	We will then begin to record everyones answers.

Crew, Casting

• Crew: Amber Jones (Founder/ Interviewer) Tristan Serrano (Researcher) Stephaney Mohamed ( Film Recorder Kouros trains Stephaney)
• Casting: Church follower 3 (Priest, Bishops, Pastors & Faithful Leaders) Everyday People 3 (Adults & Teens)

Scheduling

• Between the remainder of February until the beginning of March  

Location ,Sets

• Location: Between the five boroughs of New York City.
• Sets: Church’s, Streets

What do you think life is about?

What is life about? why are we here? what is our purpose? These questions are asked by everyone in one point of our life's. It takes a lifetime for any person to answer these questions no matter how wise or smart they are. Yet we spend most of our  lives telling others what we think life is about even though we can never be truly sure.  To me life is about being with and making memories with the ones with the ones you love. Its also about discovering who you are as a person and what you love to do. And then doing whatever it is you love to do. Most importantly life is about whatever you choose to make it about.

There many people who believe life is cruel, mean and tough and that the only way to survive is to be even meaner and tougher than it. I believe that life at times can be tough and there will be times where you will struggle. But the reward you receive from that struggle is worth everything you need to go through. I believe the way of life has the potential to be free and beautiful and its up to us as a race to help achieve that potential. Life can be the most unpredictable thing in a persons life and without knowledge of what will happen will either make people paranoid or encouraged based on the person.

Overall it all depends on the person whether life is cruel and tough or free and beautiful its all the persons choice. The choices we make show and helps us determine what we think life is about and many peoples choices are often different. I believe that maybe if we stop attacking each other because or thoughts on what life is about will help make the world more peaceful and less cruel. Whether you believe life is cruel or beautiful or if you think life is about make some deity makes it or if we choose what life's about we should respect each others right to believe what they want to believe. But thats just my opinion like I said life is about whatever you choose to make it about. To me like is about family, friends, equality and unity.

What do you want to be?

I want to be many things I want to be a man who makes his family proud and those around him friend or stranger happy. I want to be a good role model for others and eventually a good role model for my children. I want to be a happy content man who does what he loves and tries to support others as much as he can. I don't want to become a regretful man whose unhappy with his life a man who never takes chances and whose's selfish towards others. Overall I want to be the man I know I have the potential to become I just want to be a happy man.

I want to accomplish becoming a archaeologist in order to travel all other the world and learn so much about people and gain the answer to so many questions. I want to accomplish my dream of traveling all over the world and learning about different cultures. I want to accomplish sharing my experiences and knowledge with others. I want to accomplish being truly content and happy.

What do I fear?

I fear many things both physical and mental. I've always been terrified of heights or more specifically of falling. I've also been scared of many animals such as a great white shark, Lions or Tigers and  many various snakes. However what i'm most scared of is becoming somethings that';s not who I truly am but I have deceived myself into thinking its what I need to be. I fear disappointing the people I care about the most. I fear becoming something different than who I am and who I want to be.

All my life there's always been one event that I've dreamed of happening. I've always dreamed that one day i'd be standing on a pedestal or stage and i'm in front of a huge crowd with my family in it and my family turns to everyone and tells them how proud they are of me. My fear is that maybe that day will never come that instead of making them proud I will only disappoint them.

I've always been scared of the future and that fear has always led me to ask what if and asking what if has prevented me from living my life. Its prevented me from making relationships with others and truly trusting them. Its prevented me from trying new and exciting things forcing me to do the same routine over and over and end my life with regrets.

Fear despite what it tries to do still helps shape who we are. Its the battle we fight with it that helps make us the person we want to be. Its a struggle we all must go through and by fighting and beating my fear I will become stronger and make my family proud.